coming or going?

simple abundance july 25

I was driving my youngest daughter back to camp earlier this week when we passed a truck just like the one we were riding in – “watch out” she said, “we just passed ourselves going – we’re in a time paradox!” Too much Dr. Who in this house maybe?

But honestly that is pretty much how I have been feeling all year. Somehow I cannot seem to get grounded at all, and although some incredible and splendid things have happened, I feel they have all slipped by half-appreciated in a blur. I have been far too busy living to have a life. All of my good intentions seem rather tattered and I am feeling glad that a new school year is just around the corner (and a little freaked out about how much work I HAVEN’T done on my new lectures) and with it a fresh mental start.

I am trying to be gentle with myself – but I am frustrated by the fact that so many of the projects I had hoped to complete this year are still unfinished in the studio.I have made incremental progress on a few – the signatures for women’s work are almost completed – but I didn’t finish it in time to enter it in the Rochester Art of the Book show as I had hoped. I know it WILL get finished – and probably pretty soon, but I feel as if I have let myself down yet again. I know the only way forward is to pick myself up and renew my efforts, but I honestly just feel a bit tired. I’d like to just take a nap – in the woods away from everything.

never done....

never done….

I have signed up for the August round of the root 30 day journal project – just to see if anything comes to the surface. Obviously something is holding me back from following through with my commitment to myself, to make more time for my own art, maybe by going back to my journals I can figure it out. While I am waiting for August – I have decided to reread Simple Abundance and journal about whatever that brings up – maybe by staying in the pages of my journal where it is safe to make mistakes I can rekindle my energies and get back to work.

Now back to my coffee and preparations for the upcoming Bookfest at WNYBAC

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7 thoughts on “coming or going?

      • Thank you. That’s little man. Quite a character. We all need a bit of support, sometimes things just fall aside we don’t get too what we want to do. Deep breath it will all come together.

  1. It is hard to keep pushing all the time, isn’t it? I get discouraged from time to time, but as you say, all you can do is pick yourself up and re-focus. You seem to get far more done than many of us, so I think it’s OK to give yourself a break once in a while. The support of the online blogging community has helped me a lot, too.

  2. I get a copy of the Simple Abundance book every time I see one in the thrift stores. I must have 3 copies. She has so many ideas and the women she has read about is amazing. I can’t imagine why someone would want to give up on these type of books.
    I am also in a mode of, I guess, thinking. I am wanting the simple life with wide open spaces in my house. That means getting rid of clutter. One blogger made an art space in her laundry room. My kitchen is right off my laundry room. Maybe if I do the same, I can get more work in and art. And I won’t be so far away from bonding with my family at the end of the day.

    • I pick one up everytime I see one too. And then I give them away! I have had a very messy sort of year. I thought going back might help me get centered again.

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